Was deeply dissapointed and hurt by a brother today. I was telling one of my brothers that I am both working and studying, and I implied that I am happy with the job that I am doing right now. Out of nowhere, this other brother jumped in the conversation and asked me “are you kidding? come on.. get real, are you REALLY happy?”.. I was caught off guard, felt like snapping back at him, but it was in front of other brothers.. I think he basically just wanted to say “don’t be satisfied with this job, don’t give up, keep on looking for your dream job”.nnI am deeply hurt and dissapointed because of few things:n1. My pride (I hate you pride)n2. Contentment is really something that I struggle with and with Lina’s tremendeous help (and God’s), I am begi
ing to be changed, but to hear it from a brother in Christ that has been coming to the same church, bible study, fellowship for 4 years… nI would expect my highschool friends to say something like that to me (and yes, there at least one person told me the same thing) and fu
ily enough, my current workmate said the same thing, but I wasn’t offended, maybe because the way he’s saying it. I don’t know.. n3. I did invest my time and prayers to this brother, few years ago, I think God is changing him to be more like Him. but he recently do this (stupid) postgrad study in business, and I guess the oldself comes back alive. The way he talks now, there’s a little hint that he’s a christian.. Nowadays he’s always talking about business philosophies, psychologies, self motivation, ambitions etc2.. Oh God, please don’t let this be..
Lord, I pray that I will not hate him, I pray that he will someday understands things that he has been taught, I see him drift further and further away from You, you alone that can bring him back.. don’t let your Word in him be like a seed fallen on thornbushes… pray that your Word in me will not be like a seed fallen on thornbushes.
Come to think of it, there were some people that go back to their oldselves after learning so much in church (I guess it’s true, knowledge puffs up but love builds up, regardless how much you know about the bible, if you don’t choose to obey, then you just don’t), one person comes back to Catholicism after being taught about the difference, she’s also valiantly defending the Catholic faith nowadays, arguing and debating quite badly with our brothers and sisters (not entirely her fault, I and other people are really bad at handling it and there’s another brother from other fellowship in church that do the same thing, well he left too).
Another sister who has been taught about the danger of Charismatic movement (as she was a charismatic and she acknowledges that some of the Charismatic teachings are not biblical), recently told my gf that she’s leaving our church to join the charismatic conggregation somewhere else, why? is it because we don’t sing much? is it because we don’t speak in tongues? is it because we don’t exercise the power of healing??? is it because you are not given enough opportunity to use your TALENTS in singing???? why why why?
All of these years of working so hard with you all, praying for you, reading the bible with you, all comes to NOTHING??? I thought you were growing in understanding but you are not, you never truly believe what has been taught, if you still want to be Catholic, Charismatic, Sucessful business man, then don’t bother to come to our church in the first place and save us from being hurt.. I don’t minister to two of you directly, but I cried for you..