Incoherent thoughts starts here (meant for personal mediation, not public comsumption):ntired from basketball game yesterday, work was tiring, galatians bs meeting was quite good actually..
Hm i thought porting the (old) logic to the new layout would be a straight forward process, well it is, but it’s still tiresome nonetheless. Come to think of it, I have re-worked some of the logic. Hopefuly it will be clearer and more consistent. Should think more about efficiency? Well does efficiency really matter for a web based application? It matters when database manipulation is involved -> need efficient way to access the db, avoid nested loop when possible, avoid needless database co
ection to get the data.. but even this, the performance gain will only be apparent when the database size is big, most of our clients don’t have that much of products thus database size doesn’t really grow exponetially… does coding in PHP make one a lousy programmer? I mean it’s NOT a strongly typed, NOT STRONGLY TYPED language!!nnHow to be able to survive financially with current pay (or how long can i survive with the current pay), have to think where to cut the expenses, especially when the baby comes.. say bye2 to the idea of buying a property for at least 1 year… but then.. how much one must earn to be able to buy a property, well that depends on how much deposit you will put in and how much your property costs (plus the ongoing costs). how much one must earn to be able to save 30% of his salary, be able to give 20% to charitable purposes and use 50% enough to cover family expenses? Well that depends on one’s lifestyle isnt it?
i wonder why people want to be a leader in pelita, in focus church or in churches in general. i mean seriously, what gain can one get from such position? Endless meetings, long meetings, not always achieving solutions, people disagreeing with each other, people give silly suggestions, the burden of members seeing you being “hollier” than them. argh! but at times it’s good, seeing people so committed, hearing encouraging stories, get bible input, seeing godliness being lived out by the fellow leaders. these people sacrifice a lot, most of em are workers, some of them are married, few of them got kids (only josh and charles actually).. and i keep wondering why, how can they endure… do you want to gain respect from such a position? that’s a wrong motive, besides i can tell you, sometimes ppl can hate u coz u are one of “them”, the leaders, the insensitive, military like people, never listen to members opinion, stubborn, unwilling to change. someone even predicted that pelita will die in few years becoz of their leaders.. isn’t it hurtful when your member say that to you (altho not directly). do all guys expected to become leaders? is being a leader (in church) a compulsory, a neccessary progression in being more mature in christian? what happen if someone do want to become one, but not given a chance to do so, what happen if the opportunity is offered to a wrong person (who might have all the right attributes but who can search a man’s heart?). what are actually the criterias of picking a leader, FAT -> Faithful, Available, Teachable. do these things are actualy being checked for the current leaders? i for one is no longer Available (as much as I did). and yet how can one measure faithfulness? by his serving in church, i was serving in bookstall, but i cant say that i did it faithfully, so if even doing a ministry isnt a guarantee of faithfulness what is? availability and teachability how would you measure that?
exercise finished. spaghetti thoughts -> do i think more like a woman than a man? box vs spaghetti.