I often wonder and often feeling guilty in thinking how I can be very productive in my tech blog and yet I write very little on my journey as christian.

I am not sure whether my guilt is justified, I know my standing before God will not be judged on how many blog articles I wrote. Yet on the other hand surely I should devote some time and effort on this.

It is not that I don’t have things to write, but blogging on spiritual things is hard, really hard. There are some reasons on why I found it hard:

1. Fear – afraid of writing something wrong. I am really2 afraid of writing something that is wrong theologically – if I am not 100% absolutely sure of what I write, I won’t blog it – perhaps I am asking too much of myself, perhaps I am thinking too much of myself.

2. Pride – wanting to write something brilliant articles that might win people over to Christ – am I seeking Christ’s interest or my own? How self serving I am.

I know it’s hard, but one of my 2009 resolutions is to blog more about my relationship with God. Perhaps some of them will contain some errors, I am only human, I pray that God will let me to write carefully though. And if I fail in my resolution, I know that God will not fail me.