Well, it was (and still is) quite stressful during the past few weeks.

Some of the causes are due to my own making, while some of them are externals:

• Matt’s hospitalized for few days, and then the week after Lina was also taken to the hospital – made us very stressful
• Ever since Matt comes back from the hospital – he’s become more difficult. His sleeping pattern has changed for the worse and his cry becomes louder and more frequent. Lina was quite affected by this change – which in turns also affects me as well.
• Studying for SCJP was also a very stressful for me, this is probably a stupid decision that I made. I was thinking to recession-proof myself but boy the amount of preparation needed to pass this exam is unbelievable. I can’t turn back, now that I have paid and booked the exam. Good thing is, I now be able to put this more in perspective, I’ll do my best, if I pass I pass, if I have time to study I will, if not I don’t want to be overly stressed about it.
• Bible study, I am supposed to be co-leader of this group, but I can’t even make it to the bible study consistently. And if even I was present, I couldn’t help the leader whenever we had heated discussions, personality clash, difficult questions etc2. I am just so frustrated, I just wrote an email basically suggesting that I should remove myself from this position.

I know it will get better. I am looking forward for the end of May, when I finished my exam.