Bored with Sydney and Australia, bored with my lack of prospect in getting a good and interesting job.
Bored with Pelita, bored with the bible study, bored with always learning stuffs about bible and God, but little effect in changing my heart, bored with the same people and the same problem, bored with myself and my problems that I thought I have overcomed.
Yeah, I am in a depressive mode again, I hope it doesn’t last long.

Felt the urge to blog, have a lot of stuffs that i wanted to write about the trip, but as always, once I am in front of pc, ready to write, i couldn’t write anything meaningful 🙁
I wasn’t feeling well when on the plane coming back from Spore. I need to take a note on this: bring flu/cold medicine next time to make it easier for me to sleep. Although the most likely cause is that I have allergy to something in the plane, either the aircon, the smell or else. Or maybe it’s just flying in the early morning. Or it could be the lack of sleep.
And forget about trying to watch movies as much as you can, you’ll be either too sick or too tired to do that. Do that on your flight from Sydney. I did manage to watch 1 movie over the period of 4 hours :P, it’s the Island, not as good as I’d expected.
The first and the second day back always quite hard, with the tiredness but have things to unpack and usually inability to sleep. And not to mention, the feeling of missing family (and wife), feeling a bit lonely, wondering why I live in sydney in the first place.
Managed to do some study for exam on Sunday night, starting 10 pm, finishing at 1 am. Did some more study in the morning, and then off I went. I think I can pass this subject, the exam itself wasn’t hard, I wish I have studied better.
Today is the third day, I should be thinking about the next job I want to apply soon. But to afraid to think, how long can i remain jobless? Just realised that share trading can’t really be a source of living, unless you have large capital to play with. Hm hm. well this is indeed a confused mind.

Why money creates a distrust between family members? Why must everything be put on ink, why trust can no longer work? I know it’s very sensible thing to do, yet I feel disgusted on the fact that a piece of paper is more trustworthy than a person’s word. I also have heard too many stories about family disputes over money, why?? Why disputing money that you don’t earn? My disputing money that is “supposedly” GIVEN to you? But yet I also understand well the other side of the coin. If they want to give it to you, but someone else wants to get it, then, wouldn’t you fight for it?
I pray that it will never happen to me and my family. I hate it, I just hate it. Maybe we all have been blinded, we are lied to, maybe poor is better, for the poor love each other without reservation.
Such is a world in rebellion against God.

During our combined church meeting yesterday, we meet with people from different conggregations (churches), there were some australians (too few I think , too many asians :P). That makes me a bit sad, I mean why only the asians that are interested in christianity. I long to see more australians committed to Christ, especially students in UNSW, then maybe they will make a difference, they will make an impact to Australia. Maybe the drinking and gambling culture one day will be gone, as people embraces God’s word. Yeah, I should be praying for Australia, I think it desperately needs the gospel just like any other nations in the world.

Never quite understand why drinking is becoming a culture in UNSW students life. October fest is one of the things that I HATE about UNSW (maybe other unis are having it too), what’s the point of students getting drunk, furthermore in Week 12!
I also find it a
oying and sickening to see some students getting drunk every Thursday at Civ Eng building when I have my COMP9519 lecture.
I am really pissed off with UNSW (the university for its never ending upgrades on buildings but not on the academic staffs nor content) and its drunk students.